Little Faith

Everything will be okay.

Your faith is so little in me. Yet, your faith in yourself is strong. Am I not more powerful then you? Am I not the creator of the world, universe and of you; but you cannot trust me.

No matter how much you break my heart; I will never leave you. Never. You are mine. You belong to me and I will never let you go.

You're okay. You're safe in your numbness. But don't miss what's passing you by. Don't miss me. Stop trying not to feel. Your feelings are from me. Your emotions are from me. Every part of you I have created for a reason. I have not given you more or less then what you need.

Clouds

Overwhelming LOVE.

I love you.


I love you.

Your praise is so wonderful.
I love your praise.
This is right. This is right.
Don't fight it. Don't fight my power.

I am the one. The one that matters.
I am all this is for. Nothing else. Nothing more.
Aren't I enough?
Of course I am.
Stop fighting. Stop fighting, cause I won't stop pursuing you.

Oh My Dear

"Oh My Dear"
By Tenth Avenue North

I called you up, you were in bed
Could barely make out the words that you said
But you wanted to see me instead
So I got dressed
And I stepped out into the snow
And walked for a mile or so
Felt the rush of blood come from the cold, in my chest

Well you finally came to the door
And we talked for an hour or more
Until I asked if you would stay up till four
You said “that’s fine”
But you said “there’s something I have to say
And I can’t because I’m just so afraid”
And so I held you as you started to shake, that night

Oh my dear
I will wait for you
Grace tonight, will pull us through
Until the tears have left your eyes
Until the fear can sleep at night
Until the demons that you’re scared of, disappear inside
Until this guilt begins to crack
And the weight falls from your back
Oh my dear
I’ll keep you in my arms tonight

You slowly lifted your head from your hands
You said “I just don’t think that you’ll understand
You’ll never look at me that way again, if you knew what I did”
And so your tears fell and melted the snow
You told me secrets nobody had known
Oh, but I never loved you more even though now I knew what you did

Oh my dear
I will wait for you
And grace tonight, will pull us through
Yeah, oh my dear, I will wait for you
And grace tonight will pull us through
Until the tears have left your eyes
Until the fears can sleep at night
Until the demons that you’re scared of, disappear inside
Until this guilt begins to crack
And the weight falls from your back
Oh my dear
I’ll keep you in my arms...

Till the tears have left your eyes
Until the fears can sleep at night
Until the demons that you’re scared of, have disappeared inside
Until this guilt begins to crack
And the weight falls from your back
Well, oh my dear
I’ll keep you in my arms tonight
I'll keep you in my arms tonight

Inspiration

If it’s not apparent - I love art! I love watercolor in fact. It’s my favorite medium to use.

I got inspired recently by an artist named Vermelho from DeviantArt. Love her art work. She uses watercolor along with ink to make marvelous illusions.


I love her style. There are no strong/harsh lines. The colors flow and are vibrant. Nothing seems “locked” into place, everything is free.

Taking her style, I spined it and attempted to do my own.


It’s not how I imagined it in my mind-eye’s but it came out semi cute.

Beg

"Beg"
By Shane & Shane

Here I am
One more day of not
Loving Him the way He asks
In fact my heart is singing praises to the things
that make me feel alright

So I’m sinking fast like a stone heart should
And on the way down
I’ve done what I could
To try and try to turn this stone to flesh

I’m haunted by my God
Who has the right to ask me
What by the nature of my rebellion
I cannot give.

So I beg for you to move
I beg for you to move
I beg for you to break through

So here I am
Got my deeds for the day
All my cute little words about
How I am saved
Am I saved?

Could I love you with my mouth like a church kid should
At the end of the day
My words get burned as wood
Oh, but I was good.

I’m haunted by my God
Who has the right to ask me
What by the nature of my rebellion
I cannot give.

These songs are noise
In your ears
A clanging drum
You want my love

Curves

Oh, Marty - You’re a brat!

Marty’s List:
Fuel Pump
Fix Trunk
Speed Odometer
Heater Core
Alarm Remote

I’ve come to learn that Marty is a very rebellious car. He just can’t seem to stay out of trouble.

I’ve also learned that Marty likes to be noticed.

Marty’s trunk is still not fixed, so this can cause some interesting predicaments. Today was rather windy, very windy in fact that the wind kept lifting up the tied down trunk. So, Marty thinks: “Oh no! Someone is trying to break into me. Must tell mommy!” So he sets his alarm off, again and again and again… EVERY time the trunk is lifted by the wind…

I’ve had problems with Marty’s alarm before. I didn’t receive a remote for Marty’s alarm when I got him, so there’s no way for me to turn him off unless I go to him and place my key in his door.

So, here I am, at work and the wind is messing with Marty’s trunk. His alarm sounds, then turns off after a few minutes and then comes back on after a few minutes when the mind messes with the trunk again. On, off, on off, on, off Marty’s alarm goes for about two hours straight…

Customers and business owners come in complaining about the car. I just smile and nod.

When my back up comes in, I run out and move Marty out of the wind. And then go back to work. Do you know how embarrassing it is to go to a car that has been sounding its alarm for the last few hours and turning it off?

Let’s just say, everyone knows what I drive now…

Oh Marty, you’re insane. But - we will get through this together.

Faint Memory…

Take a breath, hold the air in your lungs; fill up with my scent.

Know the way I taste, the way I smell, the way I cuddle you. Know me for me and not what you hear.

Come to me and let me mend what is broken. I am the healer and I am the only one who can make the ache, hurt and longingness go away.

Trust me, I won't break your heart - I made it. I made you. You are precious to me. Please, listen; listen to my cries of redemption and stop running. Stop running from your past; it will kill you. It will.

I can take it and cut it off. I can make it like a dream. A faint memory in the back of your mind.

You're not alone. You are not alone. Please stop acting like you are. I see your hurt. I see your pain. I see your turmoil. I care. I care!

Stop this now! Stop trying to run and live your life on your own.

Listen, listen to me please. Please listen to my cries of salvation. I can't watch to see you die. You are too precious to me.

Stop. Stop - please stop. I love you. You must stop or I'll lose you.

I don't want to lose you.

I don't know how else to make you stay. I will give you everything. Everything you could ever think of, it will be yours if you ask. I shower you with love. I give you favor. I've given you gifts. And yet you still doubt. You still run. I can't give you anything else, if you choose to continue to run away from me.

I love you. Trust me.