Thursday, July 29, 2010

Sainthood

“But sexual immorality and all impurity or covetousness must not even be names among you, as is proper among saints.” –Ephesians 5:3 (English Standard Version)

“But fornication, and all uncleanness, or covetousness, let it not be once named among you, as becometh saints.”
–Ephesians 5:3 (King James)

As the body of Christ and as the church we are called to be saints. The definition of a saint: a person of great holiness, virtue, or benevolence.

I don’t know about you, but I defiantly don’t see myself as a “saint.” Most cringe at the word saint and find it as an impossible task to become one (myself included). But reading this verse (Ephesians 5:3) gives me hope.

“As is proper among saints,” the English Standard Version gives us a step in the right direction - a rule to aspire to. It’s telling us how saints should act.

The King James Version says: “As becometh saints.” Becoming saints; saints still in the process, saints that still have work to be done.

This gives me more hope than you can imagine. I can be a saint in progress. I don’t have to be “holy” all at once, I don’t have to be “sin free,” it’s not wrong for me to still have strong struggles in my life, I’m allowed to still be a mess and have the privilege to continue working on who I am to be in Christ.

I’m a “beginner saint” and I find comfort in knowing that I can move from beginner saint to intermediate saint and advance saint. I don’t have to be an “advance saint” at a drop of a hat, I can work myself there.

The Lord will mature me to that stage when I’m ready, but I’m humbled to know that I am considered a saint even in my beginning stage.

Let's Dance!


Inspired by "Let's Dance" by Hawk Nelson.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Wall Continued


My journey of “the wall” has continued onto another path of a heart.

A harden heart, with a strong brick wall around it, a moat and a fence.

How far will we go to protect ourselves from the creator?

View a drawing of the first steps of The Wall, here.
View a video explanation of The Wall,
here.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Balloons.


We all hold on to things, good or bad. Which ones will you be willing to let go?

Original: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=6197606&id=521029128

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Exit Here...

I'm extremely depressed.
I really want to harm myself.
Been thinking about suicide a lot.
I'm so upset, frustrated and angry with/at God.
I'm full of bitterness and rebellion.
I just want out. I want out now.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

No Limits of Love


Molded the cross out of salt dough, baked and then mod-podded tissue paper and magazine clippings.

A new cross for my collection.

Friday, July 16, 2010

The Move

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Say This Sooner


"Say This Sooner"
By The Almost


I can't believe I didn't say this sooner
I'll just believe that I was all displaced
I'll get to speaking, let you know how I feel
I'll get to judging, make you see my appeal
OH OH OH OH!!!

No one would ever see things the way I do
No one will try
All my friends think that I'm gone
But I swear...
I swear I'm not

This make me feel that I'll never be quite normal
This makes me act like I'll never get out alive (alive)
I'll get to acting, make you all believe me
I'll get to faking, show you all how to grieve

No one would ever see things the way I do
No one will try
All my friends think that I'm gone
But I swear,
I swear I'm not
I SWEAR I'M NOT!!!!

In and out is where it gets back to the place
It does make me feel like I just want to feel just like its touch

No one would ever see things the way I do
No one will try
All your friends say that you're gone but you swear,
I swear I'm not

No one will ever see things the way I do
No one will try
All my friends think that I'm gone
But I swear, I swear I'm not
I SWEAR I'M NOT!!!!

Saturday, July 10, 2010

I See You.

My heart breaks for you.
I see your turmoil.
I see your hurt, pain and suffering.
I see you dying in yourself.

I see you.

Others see you.
Stop pushing away. Stop running away.
You need to face this. You need to face your hurt and pain.
You need to face me.
You need to meet me, once and for all, and know how I really am.

Stop. Stop killing yourself.
You're okay. You are okay.
I forgive you. I will always forgive you. Until you are with me.
Until you are in my arms feeling my ultimate love.

Sinner

It's hard for me to be a sinner.

When I commit a sin, the guilt and shame is so powerful that it torments me to no ends. It rips me to tiny strips till I can no longer function. It tears me down to my core, till I'm raw and hollow with no possibility of functionality.

And, yet, no matter how much I hate myself for it. I continue to rationally choose to sin.