Blessed

With my new job, I finally feel like I'm working towards something. That I'm finally working towards a goal.

I really do enjoy working in retail/customer service positions. I like being able to interact with different people and have different/random conversations. I really do strive to make people smile and bring joy to their day.

There are so much negative and unhappy things going on all the time. If I can for a few minutes, while serving someone, make them smile or brighten their day I fill like I fulfilled my purpose for the day.

I was ringing up these two gentlemen, one wasn't really into talking and the other was. So I was talking and joking around with the one who wanted to talk. He asked me why I was so 'happy,' and I said "I'm blessed."

You could tell that I took him off his guard; he didn't expect me to say something like that. He paused for a few moments and then replied: "That's good to hear… that you're blessed. That's real good." I then explained that I had been looking for a job for nine months and just recently got hired. He smiled and said that was good to hear and told me to keep up the good work.

The man who didn't feel like talking looked up at me when I said I was 'blessed.' He was surprised I had said that as well, but you could feel the atmosphere changing around us.

It's amazing what a few small words can do.

Blessed:

Adjective - Made holy; consecrated.

Noun - Those who live with God in heaven.

Synonyms - blissful, happy, holy, beatific, blest.

I'm the One

I don’t know how many times I’ve stated on this blog that ‘Wishes and Dreams’ by Stellar Kart is my favorite song. This song brings me so much peace and love. I know God uses this song to bring me closer to Him.

About a month ago, I created a ringtone for my phone of this song. I find it a little awkward, sometimes, when I’m out in public and my phone rings. You hear this loud ringtone playing music and a males’ voice singing:
“I’ll be the one who makes you laugh
Make up for the memories
That made you sad
Me and you together forever
We could be someday
You will find me in all your
Wishes and dreams”
The last couple of weeks I’ve been feeling really lonely. I’ve been craving some kind of affectionate attention. It’s been really hard on me, and I have to remind myself that I don’t want a fleeting touch. A touch that lasts a few short waving moments and then leaves just as quickly as it came.

This morning I was folding my laundry, my mind wondering to things it shouldn’t. I was listening to my custom iTunes playlist, my phone sitting next to me, and without realizing it ‘Wishes and Dreams’ started to play. The next thing I know the chorus of the song starts to play and my phone also starts to ring. I picked up the phone, talked to the person, hung up and got back to my folding. And then I realize what song was play and I corrected my thinking.

After a few more morning chores I’m now in my room, checking my email and still listening to my playlist. Again, for a few more seconds I’m thinking of things I know I shouldn’t do. And again, ‘Wishes and Dreams’ plays across my speakers and as soon as the chorus starts my phone rings - in sync with the song.

And then it hits me, God was trying to tell me something. I missed it the first time, but He didn’t give up. God tried again to gain my attention and my emotions of love and satisfaction.

As soon as I made this realization, I was shocked, surprised and a little ashamed. Shocked that God tried twice to get my attention, surprised that God would even try to tell me how much He loves me and ashamed that I didn’t go to Him first.

I didn’t pray. I didn’t ask God to remind me of how He loves me. I didn’t ask God to help me correct my thoughts. I just allowed myself to dwell on the wanting of my skin.

However, God didn’t just sit back in the atmosphere. He didn’t wait patiently as I toyed with the ideas of how I could please myself. God roared in with the promises He made me. He stated loudly what He could do and how He could make me feel.

And when I didn’t get it the first time, He did it again. And I believe, if I didn’t get it the second time He would have done it a third and a fourth. Because that’s how much He loves me! That’s how much God loves us.

God tells us on a daily basis how much we mean to Him. I’m saddened to think how many times we miss it. How many times does God have to tell us again and again and again?

But He won’t give up. He’ll never give up.

“Is it so hard to believe what
Your eyes cannot see
Your dream come true
A love to fall into
I’m waiting to show you”

No Matter What

"No Matter What"
By Rapture Ruckus

Let, Let, Let’s Go
No matter what people say (they say)
No matter what comes my way
If I fall to the floor I’m gonna get down
Get up I get down
Get up I get

We broke the chains we shattered the mould
This is the new school hip hop from the days of old
This is the newest the truest
The best that there is
Let’s take it back to the block
And then whistle this
This is what you all came for
What I got my name for
Lifting up the name that is above every name
You’re still rhyming about your rims and tyres
But you can’t take ‘em with you when your life expires
Oh!

No matter what people say (they say)
No matter what comes my way (my way)
If I fall to the floor I’m gonna get down
Get up I get down
Get up I get

No matter what people say (they say)
No matter what comes my way (my way)
If I fall to the floor I’m gonna get down
Get up I get down
Get up I get

This is hip hop’s undisputed heavyweight hard hitter
Double R makes the beat go BLAH!
Wonder how, wound which, what will come next
Just bang your head to the tracks
Until your back collapse
They try squeeze us in a box and it’s never gonna stop
Some pop hip hop rock man we blow the roof off the top
The industry is crashing no worries for us
They never helped us in the first place to blow up
So I keep on keepin’ on keep it the same
No MySpace page or major label’s runnin’ my game
So at the end of the day if they download and don’t pay
Well hey I’ll make a bed out of hay and praise His name anyway
Anyway this is now the moral of the story
We do this for the love it don’t do it for the glory
And surely you can understand and relate
So one time one rhyme one voice let’s say

No matter what people say (they say)
No matter what comes my way (my way)
If I fall to the floor I’m gonna get down
Get up I get down
Get up I get

And if you fall one time, you get back up
And if you fall two times, you get back up
And if you fall three times, you get back up

No matter what people say (they say)
No matter what comes my way (my way)
If I fall to the floor I’m gonna get down
Get up I get down
Get up I get

Genesis 50:20

“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.”
- Genesis 50:20 (NIV)

This is Where I Draw the Line

The last few days I’ve been waking up singing worship lyrics in my head. This happens to me from time to time, I’ve even woken myself singing out loud in my sleep.

It amazes me how majestic our God is. It blows my mind how we might not recognize just how phenomenal our God is in the natural, but our spirits can sense Him and what He’s doing in the spiritual and are sometimes so overjoyed that we do things we don’t realize.

It fills me with an overwhelming amount of joy to know that my spirit loves God so much, that it will worship the Lord at any and every moment – even in my sleep.

”Set me on fire
Burn me up
Burn me up
Burn me all the way
Until there's nothing left but You
Set me on fire

This is where the old me dies
This is where I draw the line”
-‘Draw the Line’ by Disciple

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