Running with God

Do you ever have on of those moments that just sticks with you; it's a moment that constantly comes to your memory and provokes an emotion. I have many of those; I do so many random things that I defiantly make memories and I have so many random things happen to me that it makes life interesting.

One moment that always brings a smile to my face and reminds me of how loving & caring our God is; is a moment that happened in corporate. Corporate is definitely not one of my favorite times of the week; waking up early and running is just not my cup of tea!

The internship was training, trying to get ready for the mountain LTE; so we were running everyday. One Friday, almost near the end of the training, I had had enough of running; I was running by myself because I'm so slow that I didn't want to slow a partner down. I had ran (and walked) almost the entire requirement for the day. I was tired, exhausted and running out of breath; I was not a happy camper.

But as I learned during gauntlet week, bringing God into corporate does help to motivate you and to keep you going. I was praying, singing and reciting scripture; doing anything to keep me going.

During my entire run I kept making goals for myself; setting up markers to where I would run. This kept me going for a while; run, pray, run, sing, run, marker, run, breath, run, pray, pray, run.

I made a turn and was exhausted! I didn't want to run any more but I knew that I had too. “Come on God! Don't give up! We can do it. Keep running!” I spoke out loud to God. I knew God was smiling down at me: “Alright. I'm coming!”

Ran a little more and was about half way done with my final loop. I made the same turn again and was even more tried than the last time. I slowed down to a walk. “I can't do this! I give up!” I felt like I couldn't take another step. I stopped and took a few deep breaths. I was tried, exhausted and wanted to give up. I was done.

“Come on. Walk to the pole. You can make it! Walk to the pole. We can do it!” God told me. I smiled and laughed loudly as I took a deep breath and ran to the pole and continued going.

The best running partner you'll ever have – God. He keeps you going!

Poems

'Worthless Efforts

A perfectly designed empty shell.
Flawless moves of hypocrisy.
Beautiful words in empty nothingness.
Perfect pretender.
Your praise is a foul stench.

I hear your cries;
But I need more than cries of surrender.

How many times do I need to break your heart
- Until you follow me?

Your soul longs for me.
To sit in my lap and to bask in my glory.
But you hold yourself back!
Come to my voice and trust in my words.
I will break all bondages over you;
-And set you free!

But continue down the path you're going,
-And you'll be forever lost in the confusion.

Believe in me, believe in my love for you.
And I will break the mold -
That the enemy has made to be your coffin.

'Untitled'
By Stella Star Cordova

You know the desires of my heart;
But you also know the hatred.

I feel like I should praise you.
My soul longs to worship you.
But my heart refuses to connect.
And my mind rejects the truth in front of me.

I long for your intimate touch.
For your sweet embrace.
Touch my soul and make it hurt.

There's a song in my soul longing to be a sweet sound to your ears.
But the humanly words that I know; are not enough.
My soul breaks because I can not give you the praise you deserve.

And when that day comes;
When I stand before you.
I will be scared -
For I will know that I have not done your will.

My love song is far from a serenade.

Run Away Star

I love to play, practical jokes on my manager. I've made it snow (twice) in his office, I have also covered his office in sticky notes, and I've covered it in lights. We're a very close and tight-knit department, so we play around with each other often. My jokes usually come out of no where, I get inspired and than react on them instantly. I kind of plan as I go along and they come out pretty well; most of the time.

I was walking back from lunch with one of my friends to the admin building. It was a beautiful, bright, sunny day and it was gorgeous outside. My friend said it was too nice to be inside all day and I agreed with her. At that moment the thought of running away popped into my mind.

“What would Brandon say if I ran away?” I asked her curiously. “Um, he'd kick your butt! You can't just pack up and leave.” She replied back. “No; I mean just for the day. Just run away for the day and come back tomorrow.” She looked at me and smiled. “I don't think he'd care, he'd find it funny.” I smiled as we entered the building.

I went to sit on the couch as I called my dad; I talked to him for a few moments and than told him about my plan. “So, you'll just pack up your stuff and move to the cafeteria?” “Yup, I will grab my laptop and run away to the cafe. I will still have Internet connection, so I can still work.” I replied back. “Well, heck then! Run for it!”

So with parent approval, I ran back up stairs grabbed my laptop, packed up all my things, told my coworker what I was going to do and wrote my manager an email:

'Dear Mr. Lilly,

I am sorry to say, but the workload and stress of my job has driven me insane. I am running away and will NOT return.

It has been a pleasure to work for you. You have taught me much.

I am sorry to drop the news like this. But I can no longer stand it!!

Good bye and God speed.

-Stella '

And with that I walked out of the office and headed to the cafe; I sat down, connected my laptop to a power supply, and begin to work. About an hour later I got an email from my coworker telling me that my supervisor was asking for me and went looking for me. I than received a text from my supervisor asking if I was 'okay.'

I laughed as I read the text and sent her an email explaining to her what I was doing. She was relieved and flustered at the same time. Apparently I really freaked her out, she was worried and concerned. I told her I was 'okay' and that I was sitting in the cafe. After a few more minutes she told me I had to come back; my manager would be in meetings all day so he wouldn't notice.

And with that, my little adventure was over. I packed up my stuff and headed back to my office. I walked by her office as I came back and she smiled at me. “Had fun running away?” “Yes I did! I just wish I could have gotten a rise out of Brandon.” I replied back. “Oh don't worry, you defiantly got a rise out of me. I was panicking trying to find you.” I laughed as I apologized and headed back to my office and desk.

Getting reset up I sent her an IM:
Me – I'm back safe and sound in my confinement :(
Her – Good :)

Later on in the day my manager walked in and said: “I thought you ran away?” He said with a smile and playful tone. “I did. But Tori freaked out and told me to come back.” “Good assistant.” He said with a smile and a laugh. “I only came back because she asked me to.” I said with a smile. “Bad intern! Get to work.” He spoke has he pointed at my laptop, smiled, shook his head and walked away.

My prank didn't work out exactly as I planed, but I did have fun running away even for a while.