Thursday, July 21, 2011

Longing


Two beings/spirits. Attempting to be together. They long to be together. But they can't. Things hold them back.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Happy July 7th!

Since my mother’s death a few years ago, I refuse to let her birthday and the day she died to be sad. I refuse to allow it to bring me down.

Yes, losing my mother was a hard and difficult thing to work through – but I worked through it. Those days are no longer filled with mourning but with joy!

My mother lived a short life – but she lived a great one. She touched and affected so many people. More people then I think she realized. My mother always thought little of herself. But years later, the things she told me, the things she taught me - ring so clearly in my ear.

My mother’s memory and life are still alive and well. And because of that, I refuse to be sad. I refuse to mourn. I choose to celebrate. I choose to be happy.

My mother is in heaven. She is with the Lord. She is joyful and is no longer in pain.

Now isn’t that a great thing to celebrate?

Happy 7th of July!
Cake and cupcakes I made in remembrance of my mother.
The stars on the cake represent her and me.

My new Build a Bear Ruth, 
named after my mother (her middle name).

Monday, June 13, 2011

Big Top

I went to the circus tonight with some friends. It was so amazing to experience. The animals, the music, the tumbling, the lights and all the phenomenal acts.

My favorite animal act was the white tigers. I loved wild cats as a teenager. I had my whole room decorated with tigers, lions and panthers. My favorite wild cat has always been the white tiger. Being able to see the white tiger up close (from a safe distance) performing different tasks and tricks was such a thrill.

My favorite act were the two strong men. Together they weighed in over 600 pounds. The tricks they performed blew my mind! They lifted each other up, they held each other on their shoulders and with their hands, they twirled each other around on their waist! It was such a breath taking sight to see.

While sitting in the stands, I tried to remember when was the last time I went to a circus. It was six years ago with my mom and my dad.

My mom was sick and one of the things she wanted to do was go to the circus. She had seen signs and advertisement all over town. She had her mind set on getting herself there. Sure enough, we made a family outing of it. We bought drinks, treats and souvenirs. It was a nice family outing.

I'm glad that I can look back at both these memories and find them 'happy.'