SUBMIT

Submit to God.
Submit.
Submit to God.
Be under submition.

Is that why I've been having such a hard time? Because I don't want to submit to the Lord. I would rather be my own master. I would rather rely on myself than someone or something else. I don't know why, cause I'm not very reliable, don't you think I would want to trust, rely and follow someone who is never wrong.

I think I found an important key today in my devotional. I want to be in control, even if I give that control away, I want to be in control of me. I'm unwilling to let the Lord run my life because that would mean I'm not in control. I would have to submit to him and his loving, caring and all knowing goodness. 

How foolish.