Welcome Home

In the middle of worship I felt lead to kneel. I went to my knees, bowed my head and folded my hands in my lap. Kneeling I started to worship the Lord. I could feel His presence.

I continued to sing. "Majesty. Majesty."

I could sense the Lord in front of me. He smiled at me and said "Welcome home. Even for a moment."

I stopped moving and singing and sat in his presence. I then sensed that that the Lord placed His hand on my forehead and said "Go. Be free. Be free." I could feel things fleeing from me. I felt freer. I sensed darkness melting off me. "Go. Go. Go!" As the Lord repeated the words 'go' I felt more free, my body became limp and I felt at peace.

I could feel the Spirit moving through me and cleaning house. Once the Lord was done, He kneeled in front of me and hugged me. "Welcome home. Welcome home."

Gem Stones.

A group of people looking towards the skies for help, for riches, for an escape. They're too distracted with what they're looking at, that they don't see what some of the gems are attached too, a demon.

The Snake.

The Lord gave me this vision, of a snake, slithering on the ground and then to a person. The snake slithered up the person's legs, the snake wrapping itself around the width of the person. The snake wrapped itself tightly around the person's ankles, their legs and loosely around their thighs, stomach, chest, arms and then the snake's head rested on the person's shoulder. It's mouth toward the person's ear. As the snake moved up, it's grip became looser and looser.

The Lord asked me what I saw. I looked at the image, all I saw was a person wrapped tightly. The Lord revealed to me that sin comes to use slowly. It creeps up on us. It always attacks our steps, where we want to go, where the Lord wants us to go. Sin wants to trip us up.

When we let sin in, it slowly takes over our life. It slowly wraps itself around us. Not tight enough to stop or choke us, but enough to control our movement. Sin moves all through out our life, until it's in the passenger seat. It whispers to us. It tempts us. We allow it to lead us.

Reach.

Tan represents life.
Yellow represents a soul.
Red represents blood.
Black represents death.
Blue represents God.
Grey represents emptiness either physical or spiritual.

The half circle represents how freeing and open God is. The circles moves down representing how god reaches down to us. The circle in the middle represents how God needs to be the center of our lives. The tree to the left of the circle represents out growth in Christ.

The black squiggles represents how the enemy can engulf you, push you down and trap you in bondage. The fire represents our blood/lives and how living for the enemy or ourselves is useless works and in the end it burns. The yellow inside the fire represents souls lost in the lies of the enemy. And the grey on the outside of the fire represents confusion.

I See You.

My heart breaks for you.
I see your turmoil.
I see your hurt, pain and suffering.
I see you dying in yourself.

I see you.

Others see you.
Stop pushing away. Stop running away.
You need to face this. You need to face your hurt and pain.
You need to face me.
You need to meet me, once and for all, and know how I really am.

Stop. Stop killing yourself.
You're okay. You are okay.
I forgive you. I will always forgive you. Until you are with me.
Until you are in my arms feeling my ultimate love.

Truth

Are these words of truth?
Are these words reflections of your heart?
Or words to fluff your ego.
I love you Lord?
You are my king?
I worship you?

I don't know. You tell me.
I hear your cries. I love them and treasure them.
But, real, honest, true worship can move mountains and make demons flee.

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I will provide.
I will make my promises come true.
I will not abandon you in your need.
I am always happy with you.

MINE.

Fight. Continue fighting. Continue fighting for me. Don't doubt. Don't doubt what I've placed in you. The gift that I placed/made in you to worship me.

Focus. Focus on me. I'm the mighty one in you. I'm the one that gives you breath. I'm the one that gives you sight. Sight in the present and sight in the not. I make you move. I allow you to lead. I allow you to flow. I allow you to stumble. But I never allow you to fail.

You have never failed in my eyes. You are my fighter. My fighter that never gives up. You will fight till the end, and even then you will not stop fighting for me.

I'm the attention you crave. I'm the love you seek. I'm the sweet kiss you long for. The arms you ache for. The body you dream about; to hold you. I'm the one for you.

You are my love.

I am your love. I am yours. I AM YOURS. Call me yours. Call me yours... My heart aches for you to call me yours. I cringe when you call others yours. My heartaches when you let others have you. You are mine and I am yours.

Don't doubt me. Do not doubt your first love.

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Rest in me. You don't have to yell.
You don't have to scream.
You don’t have to jump, dance, leap, spin or speak.
Just sit. Sit in my presence and soak me in.
Soak in my love, my power, my strength.

Breathe me in and inhale.

Creation

You try too hard.
You try way too hard.
Just sit and wait.
Sit and listen to me.

I'm not quiet. I'm not whispering.
I'm not yelling either. Nor screaming.
But I am talking. I'm talking to you.
Cause I love you. And cause you're awesome.

You're amazing. Because I made you.
I made you. Science didn't make you. Man didn't make you.

I MADE YOU!

I LOVE

What a sweet fragrance. What an amazing joyful sound. You bring me joy. You make me glad. Your earnest wanting of me; my love, my heart, my voice - brings a smile to my lips.

I sing sweet blessings over you. I love to bless you. I love to protect you. I love your weakness. I love when you allow yourself to be vulnerable before me. And when you are fully exposed in your nakedness, I pick you up in my arms and wrap my endless love around you; filling you with my breath, my strength.

I fill every nook and cranny, I fill every dark place with light; I chase every demon away. They have no chance compared to me.

Remember I am stronger and mightier then the torturer.

Little Faith

Everything will be okay.

Your faith is so little in me. Yet, your faith in yourself is strong. Am I not more powerful then you? Am I not the creator of the world, universe and of you; but you cannot trust me.

No matter how much you break my heart; I will never leave you. Never. You are mine. You belong to me and I will never let you go.

You're okay. You're safe in your numbness. But don't miss what's passing you by. Don't miss me. Stop trying not to feel. Your feelings are from me. Your emotions are from me. Every part of you I have created for a reason. I have not given you more or less then what you need.

Overwhelming LOVE.

I love you.


I love you.

Your praise is so wonderful.
I love your praise.
This is right. This is right.
Don't fight it. Don't fight my power.

I am the one. The one that matters.
I am all this is for. Nothing else. Nothing more.
Aren't I enough?
Of course I am.
Stop fighting. Stop fighting, cause I won't stop pursuing you.

Faint Memory…

Take a breath, hold the air in your lungs; fill up with my scent.

Know the way I taste, the way I smell, the way I cuddle you. Know me for me and not what you hear.

Come to me and let me mend what is broken. I am the healer and I am the only one who can make the ache, hurt and longingness go away.

Trust me, I won't break your heart - I made it. I made you. You are precious to me. Please, listen; listen to my cries of redemption and stop running. Stop running from your past; it will kill you. It will.

I can take it and cut it off. I can make it like a dream. A faint memory in the back of your mind.

You're not alone. You are not alone. Please stop acting like you are. I see your hurt. I see your pain. I see your turmoil. I care. I care!

Stop this now! Stop trying to run and live your life on your own.

Listen, listen to me please. Please listen to my cries of salvation. I can't watch to see you die. You are too precious to me.

Stop. Stop - please stop. I love you. You must stop or I'll lose you.

I don't want to lose you.

I don't know how else to make you stay. I will give you everything. Everything you could ever think of, it will be yours if you ask. I shower you with love. I give you favor. I've given you gifts. And yet you still doubt. You still run. I can't give you anything else, if you choose to continue to run away from me.

I love you. Trust me.

The Invader

I feel like I’m sitting in a dark corner of a room. I have my legs pulled up to my chest, my head is barred into my knees and I’m weeping. There’s monster’s outside my door growling, howling, and breathing heavily. They’re jumping against the door, banging on it and clawing at it. There’s another creature in the opposite corner of me. Their voice is smooth and sweet, almost comforting; but I know they’re not a friend. I’m rocking myself back and forth; my hands covering my ears trying to blur out the noise of the monsters and the sickly sweet invader.

I’m weeping heavily, crying out softly for help; asking to be set free. The invader smiles at me, I can see the faint smile on his lips through the pale light of the room.

Closing my eyes I take a deep breath and begin to speak confidently. Speaking truth, that the invader cannot touch me, he cannot harm me, he has no power over me. Slowly the monsters quiet down. They’re no longer jumping and banging at the tattered door. They’re not completely gone, they’re there, I hear their heavy breathing from under the door; some try to stick their noses under the door.

The light in the room becomes brighter covering me in soft yellow rays. The invader stands in the corner, he leans against the wall, his arms folded. He and the monster’s now wait.

Taking another breath I lift my head up and look towards the dark corner of the invader.

Red Band

Picture drawn from a vision that I had.

The heart represents the soul. The yellow represents God and the gray represents the enemy. The dark gray represents the strongholds the enemy still has. The light grey represents where the enemy has lost control. Sin is still there but it is no longer trapped. God can now go in and heal.

The demons split tail represents his indecisiveness; trying to make me doubt. The red band around his head means he’s one of the best. The notches in his band represent the lives he’s destroyed.

Deception – Decrement

I was listening to podcast about forgiveness and honoring. One of the points the speaker made was just because you’ve forgiven someone that doesn’t mean you forget and place yourself back into a bad situation. You need to have decrement and only place yourself in a good healthy place.

When this was stated, I envisioned a present. A beautiful present wrapped in colorful wrappings and a pretty bow. But the present was surrounded by darkness, where the present was there was a little light, but everywhere else - darkness.

Around the present were different signs to make the present look appealing; hearts for love, dollar signs for money, smiley faces for happiness, and music notes for joy. Mixed in with all the signs where question and expiration marks; trying to make the present look exciting and interesting.

Everything around the present was trying to make you open it. But on the present itself, on the beautifully wrapped present, were signs of death, poison and heartache. On the pretty bow were words of death, heartache, bitterness, anger, hurt, depression, etc.

The present itself was bad. It would bring nothing but hurt, pain and heartache if opened. But it was wrapped in something that looked inviting and happy.

Deception.

How many times do we look at something and think it’s grand, but in reality it’s not.

How many times do we open presents that aren’t good for us?

How often do YOU get fooled by pretty wrappings?

Passion.

The Lord showed this to me in a vision.

There was a time period where the Lord was speaking a lot to me in visions of hearts; basically, my heart in different stages of growth.

One day during worship, I got this vision of a heart jumping up and down with a speaker built in playing music. The heart was worshiping the Lord.

My passion is music. My passion is to worship the Lord fully.

Abandon.

The Lord showed this to me in a vision.

There was a time period where the Lord was speaking a lot to me in visions of hearts; basically, my heart in different stages of growth.

During worship, the Lord reveled to me that I needed to abandon my past loves. I needed to get rid and abandon everything that I use to love, like and that consumed my life. I needed to forsake my old heart and walk down the path to the renewing river to be cleansed and purified.