Are You a Shopaholic?

Yes, yes I am a shopaholic; and I’m not ashamed to admit that. I’ve known this for a few years now. I discovered this about myself when I lived in Colorado. I’ve said this many times, but when I lived in Colorado I was in a really bad place mentally. I was barely surviving.

I would lock myself in my room listen to music, cut, and play The Sims 3. That is when I wasn’t at Build-a-Bear making more stuff animals then any young-adult really needs. Or buying crosses from Hobby Lobby to “grow” my collection (my collection took up one and half walls). Or at thrift stores buying books I never really intended to read.

I was constantly buying things. I would go to Walgreens and buy random things to make myself happy; stickers, candy, coloring books, and art supplies. I didn’t really realize what I was doing when I was doing. My main goal was surviving and living to the next day.

Now that I look back at it, yes, that probably wasn’t the healthiest thing for me. I shouldn’t have used materialistic things to comfort myself. Do I still do it? Heck yes! But I do control it better now.

I think, at moments we all need a little help to stabilize ourselves. And if buying something brings your mood up and aligns your thoughts & mind, then maybe it’s not that bad. Lesser than two evil’s, you know? I think indulging in ourselves every now and then is okay.

For sure we shouldn’t be doing it all the time. It shouldn’t become an addiction. The “only” way we can become happy.

Acceptance is the first step in recovery, and recovery takes time.