How?

The last few days, have been very difficult emotionally. I’m having a very hard time trying to process everything.

My emotions have been in every direction, one extreme to the other and now – I’m just worn out. I’m tired, exhausted and devastated. And I have no clue where to go from here.

I feel empty, used and discarded.

I feel… Like I lost a life that I never got the chance to live. A beautiful gift shown to me on a golden platter with a big red bow and then it was quickly escorted away to a back room to never be seen again.

Why does life taunt us so? How does it know exactly what we want, what we crave, and what we desire? And how does it know in what way to steal it from us, to break our hearts, and cripple us from ever wanting to try again.

How does it know?

And how do I lower my expectations?