About a month ago, I created a ringtone for my phone of this song. I find it a little awkward, sometimes, when I’m out in public and my phone rings. You hear this loud ringtone playing music and a males’ voice singing:
Make up for the memories
That made you sad
Me and you together forever
We could be someday
You will find me in all your
Wishes and dreams”
The last couple of weeks I’ve been feeling really lonely. I’ve been craving some kind of affectionate attention. It’s been really hard on me, and I have to remind myself that I don’t want a fleeting touch. A touch that lasts a few short waving moments and then leaves just as quickly as it came.
This morning I was folding my laundry, my mind wondering to things it shouldn’t. I was listening to my custom iTunes playlist, my phone sitting next to me, and without realizing it ‘Wishes and Dreams’ started to play. The next thing I know the chorus of the song starts to play and my phone also starts to ring. I picked up the phone, talked to the person, hung up and got back to my folding. And then I realize what song was play and I corrected my thinking.
After a few more morning chores I’m now in my room, checking my email and still listening to my playlist. Again, for a few more seconds I’m thinking of things I know I shouldn’t do. And again, ‘Wishes and Dreams’ plays across my speakers and as soon as the chorus starts my phone rings - in sync with the song.
And then it hits me, God was trying to tell me something. I missed it the first time, but He didn’t give up. God tried again to gain my attention and my emotions of love and satisfaction.
As soon as I made this realization, I was shocked, surprised and a little ashamed. Shocked that God tried twice to get my attention, surprised that God would even try to tell me how much He loves me and ashamed that I didn’t go to Him first.
I didn’t pray. I didn’t ask God to remind me of how He loves me. I didn’t ask God to help me correct my thoughts. I just allowed myself to dwell on the wanting of my skin.
However, God didn’t just sit back in the atmosphere. He didn’t wait patiently as I toyed with the ideas of how I could please myself. God roared in with the promises He made me. He stated loudly what He could do and how He could make me feel.
And when I didn’t get it the first time, He did it again. And I believe, if I didn’t get it the second time He would have done it a third and a fourth. Because that’s how much He loves me! That’s how much God loves us.
God tells us on a daily basis how much we mean to Him. I’m saddened to think how many times we miss it. How many times does God have to tell us again and again and again?
But He won’t give up. He’ll never give up.
Your eyes cannot see
Your dream come true
A love to fall into
I’m waiting to show you”
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